I never thought I'd be writing to the world about my personal issue with weight but it's something
I need to get out and maybe my own personal journey will help someone else.
My name is Vicki and at the time I write this I am 39 years old. Almost the big 4-0.
Age doesn't scare me. Neither does death. I am a highly spiritual person - not religious but spiritual.
What does that mean, you ask? It means that I do not go to church and do not follow one religion. I have searched
high and low for God or whoever he is. I believe in a higher being, yes. But I do not believe in Heaven or Hell.
I have discovered that my beliefs fall closely in with Japanese Shintoism. I believe in ghosts
or spirits - I believe that death does not end our journey but just starts us on a new one. After discovering the International
Ghost Hunters Society and attuning myself to the paranormal, I have discovered that we are not alone in this world.
I have had way too many strange occurances happen to me or my family to think otherwise.
My ex-husband's beliefs fall into the Native American realm and his wife's beliefs are Wiccan.
As I discovered on my journey, these are not evil beliefs. They worship the very core of our being ... a single entity
and our great Mother Earth.
It is by being open and receptive to all that is around me that I have discovered my father close
by as well as the spirits of my pets that have preceded me to the Rainbow Bridge. This is why I do not fear death.
Actually, I fear life. I am overweight. No ... I am obese. My BMI teeters between
39 and 40. I have high cholesterol and High Blood Pressure. And I have diabetes. Severe diabetes.
I am on more medications than my 76 year old mother. And I hurt. I suffer panic attacks
and with all my risk factors, whenever one starts I fear that this time it may actually be a heart attack.
I suffer from severe neuropathy in my feet and I know if I do not get the diabetes under control,
I am going lose a toe or my whole foot or even my leg - as my neuropathy goes up to my thigh in my right leg.
I have tried all sorts of weight loss techniques. I've done South Beach, Weight Watchers, Meridia
and Zenical. I've cut carbs and sugars and lowered my portions. Sure, I lose some weight then quickly gain it
back plus more.
So after 5 long years of debate and hemming and hawing, I have finally decided that I am going to
undergo Gastric Bypass Surgery. It's drastic, yes, but I feel it is my only way out of this nightmare.
This is just the beginning. I have made the decision. I have picked my doctors and will
be attending one of their seminars to get more information. I have already seen their online presentation and I am ready
for the next step. The fact that these doctors are through Florida Hospital makes me feel even more comfortable.
By this time next year, I hope to have dropped a good bit of weight.
My blog will start up after the seminar, which I hope to attend Wednesday, September 19. After
that my new journey begins.
I hope you'll join me ....
